The last little while has been a struggle for me. I am missing the one thing in my life that I need the most, the support from others. I was living in an environment where I had that support of being able to talk to anyone about anything, or ask for prayer 24/7, and they would fully understand what I was going through and needed. Now being out of YWAM I don't have that, and am finding it really hard to keep being strong in that.
I have just been struggling with remembering that God will take care of me and provide everything that I need. So why am I worrying so much about school (where's the money coming from, am I going to do well, how am I going to have a job to pay for everything and go to school full time?), and living (where am I going to live, how will I afford it?). Then I start to get really stressed out about the fact that I don't know what I am going to do, and I need to remember that God provided a ton of money for me when I had none when I was in YWAM, and if I just continue doing what He wants me to do then I will have everything I need to do those things.
So if you are a praying kind of person, if you could just pray for me and that God will speak to me as to what I am to be doing next and that I will have a calm mind about that fact that He will provide, and pray that He will provide that would be such a blessing.
And if you aren't the praying kind of person, well you may not understand where I am coming from and may think that this all sounds a little crazy, but that's okay, someday maybe you too will understand what it all means.
cheers, Mallory
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